This morning I was reading in Psalm 108, again a passage that I have read dozens of times, but this morning I saw it just a little bit differently.
My heart is steadfast, O God! I will sing and make melody with all my being! Awake, O harp and lyre! I will awake the dawn! I will give thanks to you, O LORD, among the peoples; I will sing praises to you among the nations. For your steadfast love is great above the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the clouds. Be exalted, O God, above the heavens! Let your glory be over all the earth! That your beloved ones may be delivered, give salvation by your right hand and answer me!
My heart IS steadfast, not once in the lifetime that I have known of God (I’ve known of God from a very young age). I have seen and dealt with great tragedy in my lifetime, and many trials, and not once in that lifetime have I doubted God….my heart is steadfast!
I will sing and make melody with all of my being….well, here’s where I have to be honest and say, No, I haven’t given my ALL , I can (and do) give all circumstances, but as far as me, myself, I keep giving Him my ALL, and then turning right around and taking it right back…..it being many different things during different times in my life. RIght now, in our current circumstances, I would say that “it” is the worries that I have over our futures relating to the government. Our future rights to homeschool our children (I AM thankful that we are 7 years from being done in this respect, because if homeschooling is outlawed in the US …. if you don’t know what I’m talking about look up the Romeike case, and what Attorney General Eric Holder said about homeschooling…..we will be done or almost done by the time this comes down the pike. Also, how ObamaCare is going to continue to effect our family’s health care costs, and even the availability of medications for our oldest daughter if my husband’s employer gives up the private insurance that we currently have and goes with the government program…..from the reading that I have done, I do not believe that all of her meds will be covered (they are QUITE expensive, and we are BLESSED to have insurance that covers it now). Also, how Christians are being targeted in our country….in the past several years, we’ve been labeled by HomeLand Security as potential domestic terrorist threats, we’ve been ostracized by every level of government as being narrow-minded, hypocritical, prejudice, and bigots…..and the list goes on. These are all things that are COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY out of my control, and God has these things, but I continue to worry on them, and literally have sleepless nights about them. This is how I do not give my ALL to God.
Awake O harp and lyre! –Lord awaken in me the spirit of contentment….not necessarily in our current status as a family, church, etc, because in those things I am content, but in the future events….the things that I have absolutely no control over, and REALLY? Have no business worrying over! Awaken in me, the contentment of a child, Lord allow me to follow after You and in life with a child’s faith.
I will give thanks to you, O LORD, among the peoples; I will sing praises to you among the nations. –Lord renew in me a spirit of thankfulness! I do not struggle in this as I used to, but it is something that I sometimes “forget”. Lord help me to be a voice for you among all of the people that I come into contact with!
For your steadfast love is great above the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the clouds. Be exalted, O God, above the heavens! Let your glory be over all the earth! That your beloved ones may be delivered, give salvation by your right hand and answer me! –Lord I thank you and I praise you and give you glory for ALWAYS being my Abba, my Redeemer, my I AM, my Healer, my Messiah, my Kinsman-Redeemer, my All in All, my everything! You are the same yesterday, today and tomorrow, never changing, ever faithful. I do not deserve to be called a child of yours, but you love me more than my shortcomings and my wickedness. THANK YOU LORD!