I absolutely love this time of day! I barely slept last night, and was tempted to reset the alarm this morning to skip my quiet time this morning, but at 4:30 this morning I woke up again and realized that I would really miss out and regret not having this time, so I’m just loading up more heavily on caffeine this morning 🙂 And boy, am I thankful that I didn’t skip today! God really addressed something in my life that I don’t struggle with often, but when I do, it’s usually ugly. And over the silliest things!
Mark 8:14-21 Now they had forgotten to bring bread, and they had only one loaf with them in the boat. And he cautioned them, saying, “Watch out; beware of the Pharisees and the leaven of Herod.” And they began discussing with one another the fact that they had no bread. And Jesus, aware of this, said to them, “Why are you discussing the fact that you have no bread? Do you not yet perceive or understand? Are your hearts hardened? Having eyes do you not see, and having ears do you not hear? And do you not remember? When I broke the five loaves for the five thousand, how many baskets full of broken pieces did you take up?” They said to him, “Twelve.” “And the seven for the four thousand, how many baskets full of broken pieces did you take up?” And they said to him, “Seven.” And he said to them, “Do you not yet understand?”
“Do you not yet understand”…..oh how many times I have heard those words echo in my heart when I have doubted God or doubted His plans that He is setting in motion. The disciples didn’t quite understand just who it was that they were following. This was still fairly early in Jesus’ ministry, and they hadn’t been following Him for very long, however they had witnessed enough and God had shown them enough in their hearts that they should have had a clue…..and that is what Jesus is trying to tell them here. I fully understand this in my own heart…..there have been times in my life where I have doubted that God could take care of an issue, or that He was working in my life through a trial, or that He was going to provide for our needs in times of financial distress. He must sit on high and shake His head and sigh and say “Do you not yet understand?” There is a point in our lives where our heart knowledge has to meet or exceed our head knowledge. I keep thinking that I’ve reached that point, and then God will yet again have to say “Do you not yet understand?” Today I am so very very thankful that God is not done with me yet! The potters hands are still very much in this lump of ugly clay, creating something beautiful!