Yesterday I came to the realization that a very negative attitude has festered in my heart. I came to this realization when I had to apologize to a friend for the 2nd time in the past week. What really stinks about this is that this friend is a Godly man that I have a lot of respect for, and I have just been really trampling all over him lately (no this isn’t my husband, but I’ve been doing the same thing to him 😦 ) and the whole reason is because I have allowed those old voices those old negative thoughts and attitudes about everything, EVERYTHING get rooted in my heart again! During the night I had a dream, I don’t remember exactly what it was, but I know that it had to do with those icky things being rooted in my heart…..I knew that it was a dream from my Father that loves me more than I will ever deserve and wants me to be my very best with Him reigning every area of my life!
This morning I woke up with a part of a verse running through my head and my heart so I went to my favorite online bible resource and found that they have a verse of the day……
“I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear … from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”- Revelation 21: 2-4
My heart’s desire for my life and the lives of our family is that we would all be as a bride beautifully dressed for her bridegroom…..that we’d all be clothed with righteousness. And that the dwelling of God would be in my heart and radiated through my mouth, attitudes, thoughts, desires, goals and dreams. Thank you Lord for the healing that I know is ultimately coming!!! And for giving me this verse today!
So after I found that verse (and did a facebook status update thing on it, then went and spent some time in the kitchen), I did the search for the verse I was looking for…..the portion that I was meditating on was “take every thought captive” so I did a search on those words because I couldn’t remember the reference or the rest of the verse. Well, when the verse came up I did what I usually do and clicked on the “verse in context” link so that it will give me the verses around it to put it into context….. this is what I got!
1By the meekness and gentleness of Christ, I appeal to you—I, Paul, who am “timid” when face to face with you, but “bold” when away! 2I beg you that when I come I may not have to be as bold as I expect to be toward some people who think that we live by the standards of this world. 3For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. 4The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. 5We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 6And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete. 2 Corinthians 10:1-6
It hit me right in the face that I’ve been waging war as the world does! By hurling my words (which haven’t been prayed over, they are just regurgitating from a heart that I have allowed the things of this world start to take root in again) and negative thoughts and attitudes, I have been justas the world is. So my prayer today, this week, and every day (I hope) from this day forward will be that I would wage war in the complete knowledge and guidance of God, and that I would be obedient to Christ and that I would take every thought (and attitude) captive! Lord begin anew this work in my heart!